Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Pushing my Limits

I only have one more week left of boot camp, and then I decided to keep at it for at LEAST one more month.  The great thing about this place is that I can pay on a month by month basis, as long as I give them a 30 day warning to cancel my membership.  We will see if I continue on with it after the next month.  Honestly, I would like to, but I’m not sure about the funds.  With this + what I pay for zumba, that would come out to $1200 for the YEAR in fitness related stuff. Blerg!! So, we will see. 

The thing I am enjoying about boot camp (can those three words- “enjoy” and “boot camp” be used in the same sentence??) is that it really pushes my limits.  Tonight was ROUGH.  I was sweatin’ like crazy, and I physically felt like I was going to throw up and/or pass out at one point(and that hasn’t happened since day one of boot camp).  My abs(that are hidden under all this fat..somewhere, hope to find them one day!) felt like they were going to melt off from doing so many bosu ball crunches.  My biceps were yelling at me to stop pulling the giant TRX cord thingy-mabobs. My brain was telling me to just stop, give up, I can’t do this anymore, after just 3 rounds(3 more to go!).  But I kept going.  I kept pushing myself even though I wanted to vomit my grilled cheese all over my neon pink Nikes. 

And THAT’S what I am enjoying about boot camp.  I never thought it was possible for me to push myself like this; to be able to talk myself out of quitting something that was “too hard” for me to do.   Do I look forward to boot camp? Not really.  But once I’m done trying to talk myself out of going, or done listening to my inner self tell me I am not strong enough or fit enough to finish each circuit, I feel accomplished.  I feel like I CAN do this.  I feel like I CAN get to my goal weight(whatever that may be), and that I can do whatever the eff I want and do it good.  It doesn’t matter what that voice is telling me; what matters is that I start and finish this!